Random Stuff On My Mind

So...today was on okay day. I've been thinking about a lot of things though...just typical growing up thoughts. I thought about money issues with my family and myself, thought about jobs and how I need to get one that will pays more and give me hours to work, fitness and health, thought about the loser boyfriend that I really should just call a "friend with benefits", thought about the fact that I missed my psychologist appointment on Wednesday, thought about the rejection I got from this job I wanted, and so much more... I talked about a few things on my brain with my mom tonight...that was nice I guess. I have come to realize that I am a really honest person...and I like to be an "open book". I am pretty much an open book. Maybe that's a bad thing, but it is just the way that I am. I share way too much info, but I hate secrets...every time that I hold something in, it breaks me down inside until I burst. I can't hold anything. That's kind of why I blog. I really don't expect people to read it, but I guess that happens on the internet. Oh well...open book. I don't write necessarily so that it can be read. I write so that I can get it out. I mostly use my myspace blog though...on there I know who reads it. Sorry...I'm rambling...I'm done now.

Just Because

Today is going pretty good so far. I am tired, but I'm surviving. School is going pretty good. I keep hurting myself in my fitness classes though. My arm was hurting all week...it's finally stopped hurting. DUUUUDE...the other day, I tried to log on to my myspace account and it said that I was deleted. I was soooo PISSED. I had to create a new page. I was able to get on it today though...and that makes me happy!!!! Work SUCKS!!! ...LIKE ALWAYS! What can I do though? Most places don't want to hire me because of my tattoos...but I am still on a quest to find me a different job. Boyfriend is lame...he hardly ever comes around and he is a serious moocher. He really needs to grow and and face the music. Family is cool...but my younger sister, Val, has A LOT to learn about friendships and forgiveness. My brother, James, needs to learn how to stop being a pansy. My older sister, Sarah, needs to learn how to tell the truth. Mom, needs to stop the guilt trips. Dad needs to get A REAL JOB! And my roommate and BEST FRIEND, Gen, needs to grow up and get a spine! I'm not perfect tough...I have A LOT that I need to learn and fix...and I am working on it. It's a slow, but steady process...but I am getting there. That makes me happy to say that...AND MEAN IT. Well...I guess that's all for today.